have been slowly (and i mean slowly) getting back some art motivation back which is obviously very nice to have!

there's context for this horrific monstrosity that isn't appropriate for this post, but it's funny anyway

i wanted to make a new banner image for myself and integrate the phrase "creative polyglot" as it feels like an appropriate description for me, but the thing about that was the i thought something was wrong with it. i posted it to some discord circles and didn't get much, so i posted on the newgrounds forum for the first time in nearly a decade (christ.) to ask for feedback. i wasn't expecting a lot but i did get a reply and opted to try to start it again, thank you @xeiavica for inspiring that

one thing i liked to do was trying to draw in multiple different applications, so one night and the next morning i did just that; a draw and render test in a completely new application and drawing in an application i've used but never drawn in before:

it's always fun to try some new tools. i have thought about posting to newgrounds as an art project labeled as a sketch, but i opted not to. maybe after this post, still thinking about it. i have also done a random vector "doodle" which i might post as a sketch as well to not flood the portal

i wanted to post about getting my art motivation slowly back as i did post about not having any under a blog post about 3 weeks ago. thank you for reading my post, there's not as much text as last time (i think) but still wanted to write something about it

wanted to write up something as my activity on newgrounds is slowly increasing!

i have been posting my art onto newgrounds as another alternative for discord servers and my bluesky because of the art community and maybe getting a different audience on it with some different views n stuff. of course, on newgrounds i am kinda starting from zero given my inactivity for years and the age of my account combined (oops) but we'll see!

i currently do have a part-time job, but it doesn't have a great pay which sucks but it's better than nothin'. i have thought about trying to do some form of commissions as some form of supplemental income, but not terribly confident in myself for that, and other things.

i'm currently in one HELL of an art block, which happens infrequently with me and cycles with my programming activity; currently in the form of general software and nothing really relating to games, other than figuring out raylib with Rust but as just tools and figuring out Rust. below is an Aseprite file viewer made with raylib and Rust, which is something i made with GDScript and Godot already oops

it would also probably help if i committed to projects too OOPS

also art adjacent, i've made a Procreate file import plugin for Krita, however it's currently in a limbo of "i am not sure if i could release this" given how the Krita Python environment works and the amount of open source Python code i used for it being a variety of licenses, and some of it had to be modified to properly work anyway so.... not sure what open source license it would apply under so opted to think about it if i have nothing else to do which leaves not a lot of time.

as a last note, just going to make the blanket statement of family life stank on top of being a trans gal in america in 2025. that's all i want to talk about that subject

thank you for reading this ramble post

i unpublished a fair bit, and deleted all news posts (except this one which i'm kinda fuckin writing right now) and pre-2020 art pieces so two out of the three

mainly because of my old stuff

i hate my old self very much so YEET

i'm not very active here anyways and i kinda think people don't really care rip lol

i know archivers will be upset a bit, so anyone who wants them can talk to me (preferably not here so i see it sooner) and i'll see what i can do

i might try to make web stuff again since i'm learning godot engine

aight byee