Just general personal update posting about shite

Unpublishing rest of games

I have unpublished the two remaining published games I had on Newgrounds, which while definitely a punch in the nads about preservation, I just don't like em anymore really (to be honest all of my games have fallen under this). Alongside that, I have furthered my computer science skills overall so I could probably do a lot better nowadays n whatnot. Haven't deleted them but still just want to unpublish them from Newgrounds. Sorry

I do think my games are a general low point in the quality of my output because of inherently being complex, but also being content I mostly made before turning 20, so my 24 year old current self looks back at them and cringes really hard

Art styles/mediums

It's more notable within my art fight 2025 posts that I have dipped more and more into text-mode art, which I do really like even though it's in fact: really really hard to make!

I do think that my mixing of art style/medium output is a bit of a detriment because of spreading myself thin. I do think it's an aspect that I'm probably overthinking a lot, but I do feel like it's making me really really inconsistent

Commissions?

I have been thinking about doing commission work, and put out a quiet feeler out about a bust shot on Bluesky and nothing else to advertise. Admittedly, imposter syndrome affects me extremely hard which made overcoming myself to actually go through making the Ko-fi item. I'm not even sure if I want to keep it in favour of only doing commission work in private/directly asking instead of something public facing because of my mixed skill set. I guess we'll see

I know that talking about it with some people they recommended prices, since I will admit that I'm terrible at pricing fairly for myself in these kinds of scenarios. I still reduced the item price I was given for the feeler item on Ko-fi whoops

The unspeakable ugly, for a brief moment

It is Very Scary being where I'm at in many aspects; being in the closet about being transgender IRL in the US, seeing a lot of stuff crumbling around, et cetera. I'm trying my best to not let it get to me, but it's really hard when I'm struggling hard; especially since my job essentially cut my take home pay by about 10% for no describable or logical reason from my point of view. That's a lot of fun, and a lot more nuance that I don't think is appropriate here

Continuing

I think I might keep the general take on my online view as mostly an artist, even though personally I think I'm much better programming across my skill set. I still love programming, but generally I have been working more on an application/practicality view point. Would be interesting to tackle game development eventually again, but I don't have the time, energy, and resources to dedicate for that even in spare time (what little exists).

Thank you for reading this post, or at least skimming it. I dunno, I'm not your mum

Appreciate it though.